Do My Angels REALLY Matter?

Do my Angels really matter?  At this point, I have been thinking that my Angels have mattered ONLY to myself and NOT to anyone else.  I have worked to make the Message of the Angels relevant, but it's possible the world just isn't ready for my Angels OR the Message.  Dennis says I have been blessed, but there are times when I feel more cursed from God than blessed.  I am NOT sure my Angels matter much to anyone except for myself and they are an obsession that I am not sure I can afford.  This is the depressing part of my Angels.  They are ALL that has consumed me in 20 years and for most of this period of time, I kept it all to myself thinking that it wasn't time to share this experience with others.  There has been no financial reward of any kind for my Angels and that in fact they have been a distraction that in some ways I didn't need.  Would I have done just as well without them?  This is a question I can't answer.  Nothing has been more important to me than my Angels, but that also means that my thinking this matters ONLY to myself and NOT to anyone else.  It's possible that the world just simply is NOT ready for either my Angels or the Message of the Angels.  Now, having said this, all I can say now is that perhaps it is best that I wait until the world is ready.  But my problem is that I just am not sure how much more I can afford to wait.  God is NOT a Capitalist and He has all the time in the world.  Sometimes I just feel I don't.  Peace.  Brother Ralphie